what happens next?

what happens when you find out that the person who has always had a special place in your heart has morphed into this monster that you no longer recognise?

what happens when the laidback but harmless boy from ten years ago has mutated into this cold, unfeeling bastard?

what happens when you once again find yourself suffering the consequences of your own bad judgement? for the umpteenth time?

what happens when you can't seem to trust your own judgement or instincts anymore?

what happens when someone tells you straight in your face to 'get real' and not continue thinking that husbands & wives will always be faithful to each other?



i don't know what will happen next, but i do know that i'm still reeling from the shock of it all. that it's going to take a while to sink in. that this all seems surreal and like a bad dream. and i do know that what i learnt tonight has rocked me to the core and tore my heart apart.

leaving on a jet plane

i'm blogging this entry from the lobby of the hotel, while waiting for the time to come for me to catch the flight from san diego to LAX, from which i'd then catch the direct flight back to singapore.

it's been a week, and time has mostly been spent in the office & attending meetings where everything is brand new to me. i haven't decided if i want to make the switch back to the IT industry again, but this is an option. i guess new things excite me. i like learning new things, and probably because i do have a knack for picking things up quite quickly, teehee.

i guess i'll mull over this opportunity for a while, and try to straigthen out my thoughts of what i want to do. i know for sure that i'd still wanna dabble with my jewelry design, so i guess whatever i do for a day job would need to give me enough time to do that.

the weather here has been amazing, and i do wish singapore had such great weather. it's a great plus when i have good hair days everyday since it's not humid. haha.

well, for now, i can't wait to get home and catch up with my friends. jen is back for a week and i'd be meeting up with her & eileen on wednesday, and then there's the hen's night for jade on friday. think i should be meeting aug on sat, and then it's jade's wedding on sunday. hmm. sounds like a busy week! and i feel like a social butterfly!! lol.

ok, enough nonsense for now. gonna get ready. i'm leaving on a jet plane.