is this goodbye?

we actually had a lovely time just sitting on the couch, looking at the pictures & videos from his recent dive trips. he was especially chatty, not like his usual reticent self. well, i guess it's because he's talking about something he's passionate about. and for that moment, i remember why i fell in love with him so many years ago.

he was running late for his flight, yet he still sat there, going through the many video clips on his laptop to find the clip of the 'frog fish' that i was so curious about.

and then finally, after finding the clip and explaining what he knew about the species to me, he was really late and had to run. without a word, i dragged one of his 2 suitcases out of the apartment. he said that was too heavy for me, and told me to drag the smaller one instead.

we walked to an adjacent street to flag for a cab. after loading the suitcases into the trunk of the cab, he turned to me, said thanks, gave me a semi-hug and a kiss (not something he'd usually do). i said 'bye', turned and didn't look back to wave my goodbyes.

as i walked away, i felt tears well up in my eyes. is this really goodbye?